drowning in penguin poop

Are you drowning in penguin poop too?

Is it real

Yesterday was challenging.  Went to workforce center.  The department of ageing and rehabilitative services session.  Only three of us there.  One person was a former marine, had heart surgery, stents and a stroke.  He may have been in his 50's too.  However, he looked older due to health issues.  The other individual is a former drug user who is trying to return to work.  Has been truck driver.  The staff person who aids in assisting us with a contact person for services ask him, 'what is your DOC'?  Thought the acronym stood for department of corrections.  Thinking what weird akward wording.  No, it means drug of choice.  He said cocaine.  The employee asked him, what method does he use.  He said free basing.  Well, I tried not to bulge my already ageing eyeballs.  Glad I decided to go last.  No HIPPA there.  Wow, it is not for us to judge.  All one can hope is for recovery.  Life is difficult enough.  I can't imagine alcohol or drug abuse.  Had to deal with it at work but not in my personal life.  The guys' answer is that he tries to numb the pain of existance.  What if all of us decide to deal with our plight by this method.  Think how dangerous these people would be operating equipment?  I know that it will be a struggle for me to find work.  Want to be able to work during the day.  Want to look forward to what I do.  Don't want SSDI.  Did want the two years LTD from former employer, while I retrain for a career.  Oh no, you have worked since age 16.  No, can do.  This is how I feel.  I may be unable to find 'suitable' work.  I have to be positive.  Can I do this?  

New Year's Day

After exercising, went to Walmart to eat at Subway. It is my favorite place to get a salad. Sam's Club is closed today. I am going to have to start on finding a job in the new year. This should be a top priority. I am very intelligent. There has to be something that I can do and feel passionate about doing. I was too old and had extreme difficulty with the increase noise, and alarms. Why do 'we' and especially I cling to a difficult staff nursing job. I always felt like an outsider looking into the hospital. Certain that it is partially due to working nights. I enjoy not working 'there'. I miss the human factor. The patients etc. rarely by groceries and especially coffee. It is a big adjustment. I think I may 'adopt' a nursing home to bake for & decorate if I don't find a job. I really miss that part.

ACAC

Saw Nancy M and Faye S. both looked great. Nancy acknowledged my presence. Probably a strain on Faye. Those two have been very close. Think highly of both. It will be difficult to see folks from former employer. Eventually it will get easier.
I didn't like the drive on Pantops. Hated the walk through the forest just to get to the unit. Couldn't get close to the hospital to park. Odd thing is that for some reason there was a heavy deer population in the area. Would see the deers mainly at night but occasionally in the day too. One fascination that I had with the 'forest' walk is the large cement area near the building. Two or 3 helicopters could land there as long as the wings cleared one another. Great accessibility in emergency maneuvers. Beautiful setting and wonderful opportunity to have worked in a beautiful hospital.

I was too ill to get involved in the hospital planning, I doubted if my input would had made a difference. I know of several decisions that they made are very dangerous in a natural or man made disaster. Just hope there is a backup operation system in place. Laundry , central supplies and in house communication system within the hospital as well as a system for the hospital to communicate to the outside. I would want a computerized as well as real switchboard personnel. Could be dangerous to outsource any essential operations. Wonder how many hospitals outsource laundry, & other key functions of facility operations???

Am I missing something. Is there something I am unaware of???

Happy New Year

It is going to be very challenging. Went to First Night Virginia last night. Rex had car troubles and was unable to make it. Luckily Latitia was able to make it. We had fun. However, really missed Rex's company. He is an entertainment center all by himself.