Dread

I accidentally got sour cream mixed with green onions, a dip. Now I will have to make the pilgrimage to store again. So many people driving. I see it as dangerous. I am going to enjoy Thanksgiving. There is a delay in the long term disability. I don't know much about it. I decided I will work somewhere if it kills me. Who will tolerate my crying spells, anxiety, and panic attacks. I will be competing with so many others who need to work. It is difficult for me to get started on this task. Going to the store and not able to get what I want is difficult. I always had money in the past. I will probably have to work for less money, more hours, and probably no benefits. I will just have to do it!!!!

Today

I had many errands to do. Phyllis my upstairs neighbor went too to get groceries & medicine. Went to Krogers & she got her eye drops. Then I missed the turn to the Greek Orthodox Church. Instead end up downtown. So I went to get 3 tickets at the Paramount for tomorrow night. So then made second attempt to go to the church. Saw the big sign going the opposite direction! So bought a lot of Greek food. Then went to CVS pharmacy to pickup my medicine. Phyllis went to get brand name Tylenol. She says it is difficult to find. So I returned to the car. While waiting for her I was straightening my pocketbook. Had a huge panic attack before regaining my senses. Luckily she was still shopping. I then called the box office. It was there safe & sound. The guy there said to come & get it by 6 pm. They will be there much longer since there is a show tonight. My goal was to save 2.50 transaction fee which is applied to each ticket!!!! Luckily it was a beautiful day. Went to McDonalds so that she could get meals for her and her husband. She really wanted breakfast food but it was way after eleven. So I ate a spinach & cheese Greek thing while waiting for her. I was very hungry after all the activity plus the panic attack. Took Phyllis home & helped carry groceries. Then off to the Paramount box office. Got the penguin change purse. Have to park far away from the pedestrian mall. So I got a lot of walking in for a beautiful fall day. So tired when I returned home that I took a two hour nap!!!!

Fall

Photo taken near Omni

Feeling

I went exercising. I kept yawning. Don't see others yawning. Why do I yawn so frequently. Why am I tired! Want to go swimming tomorrow . Feel safe. Haven't had leg cramps since June.